a study in thought
Wednesday, May. 02, 2018   11:02 am

dont think. don't think. dontthink.donthink.

*thoughts*

donthinkdontthinkdontthinkdontthinkstopthinkingthoughtsthoughtsthoughtsreplayblamelossthinkingthoughtsstop.

dont think.

smoke! smoke. smoke more. dont think. die. want to die. maybe not die. definitely want to collapse into the fetal position onto the nearest lowest surface. at work its under my desk. while im driving its down where the pedals are. under and into the dark. thats how i feel inside. DONTTHINK!

its how im coping. i dont know how to act. how to feel. i hardly know how i feel. i have few words for it. dont think about it. dont think period. smoke. tv. sleep. just dont think. thinking does nothing but depress me. dont think. just get through this. just get through it so i can move on...again.