i wanna sleep for 2 weeks
Saturday, Jul. 14, 2012   10:49 am

i dont know what im doing. nothing i suppose. thats a problem.

the next couple of weeks are easily going to be the hardest of my adult life.

im out of money for the next 12 days. i have $18. idk what i am going to do. my metrocard will expire in 6 days. thats $104. i dont know what i am going to do.

i have no food. but thankfully $6 left of foodstamps. thats 2 or 3 days of food.

i think i got a job, but even with that itll be a couple of weeks until a paycheck is generated. im so fucked. what am i doing?

im terrible with saving. even/especially when it matters the most. i fucking spent $17 last night for dinner. well, dinner and food for today. but, seriously. 17 bucks for 2 days of food? thats soo stupid. i know i could have stretched that further. but i didnt want to. i wanted what i wanted then. i guess i know ill have to go without eventually. id rather it be later than sooner.

not sure whats going to happen. my rent is paid no matter what, thankfully. so, if anything, ill just lose some weight. ive already lost 9 pounds since last time i donated plasma.

im scared, lonely, sad...its just a phase, i know. but i cant wait for it to get over.