my city of lights
Wednesday, Jun. 20, 2012   1:28 am

2 minutes after i submitted the last entry.

i feel like i dont say my feelings right.

i dont think you can say them wrong, but i feel like there were a lot of other feelings about this that i can articulate, but they were bogged down with all these other issues, but now that theyre escaped from my head i can say some better shit about it.

IM MOVING TO NEW YORK!!

im pretty sure that after i visited with gabby i swore itd happen in a years time. well, it took about 2 years but who cares.

IM MOVING TO NEW YORK CITY!!!

i want to do everything! i want to watch rooftop movies. i want to see opera and broadway in the park. i want to read a book in central park and stroll thru the museum of metropolitan art. i cannot even imagine! in less than 12 hours?! ill bee a new yorker! hailing cabs. saying, im walkin here! taking trains. its so nuts.

i just want to LIVE there. in an apartment over a fabric shop next to a chinese restaurant.

i would say its overwhelming but its not because i cant even fathom what overwhelming is. and i know that. because im not there yet. but i cant wait to be overwhelmed.

its not hard to do what you want. or maybe it is. i say ive never done anything hard in my life. i dont know if thats true or not. one mans easy is anothers hard. but if you take it in stride...i dont know. i dont know. it was a hard decision to make but the rest was like butter. and here i go.

i am so excited. even with all the terrible things that have gone on the last couple of days..despite all them things..in spite of all them things...i am over the moon and ready for this new chapter. =D