runnin, runnin, runnin
Tuesday, Jan. 05, 2010   4:02 pm

im miserable. miserable.

that word just keeps rolling around-back and forth, to and fro-in my head...

i kind of know why. but im scared im not strong enough to fix it. im waiting for everything to hurry up and fix itself. while i get to just sit here and feel sorry for myself.

thats not going to happen. duh! but for some reason i prefer to kill time wishing it will instead of being proactive.

i want someone to love me.

maybe then everything will be okay.

no...it would just make everything that much more complicated.

im going to do it. be okay. ill be 24 one month from right now. and 25 one year and a month from right now.

this is no life for a 24 or 25 year old. miserable. living at with the fam. miserable because of living at home with the fam.

oy. for all that i know..i dont know shit. crazy..