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Thursday, Sept. 17, 2009   5:38 pm

sometime after the morning had left today i was approached by Apathy. it was just a "hey" at first.

then something more. i hate something more.

apathy left and then...Sadness, Depression, and Lethargy came over (things happen in threes, you know). right now were in the middle of a group hug. i cant breathe.

i think young petal can smell them around me-as she was just sniffing my eyeball.. but of course they are invisible guests.

its strange though. these are actually welcome guests. ill even go so far as to call them friends. its nice and warm in this hug orgy. im comfortable. being inside myself. im inside myself all the time but today-right now-is really different.

ha. on the drive home today i was just having all these silly, angry, crazy thoughts...like, i looked up and saw a plane landing and before i knew it i was wishing itd crash. not crash so much as just drop from the sky.

i cant laugh right now though. nothing is funny. nor is it terribly serious. it just is. i just am.

i just took my first prozac today. is this what is supposed to happen?

im contemplating seeing triple tonight. for a comedy show. yah. i need to do that now.