i like to move it move it
Wednesday, May. 16, 2007   8:52 am

i cant help but to keep wondering-hard core-what life will be like...im stoked.

not life, necessarily, but the next couple of months.

it may be premature or presumptuous to expect owen to move into the place in 2 weeks and me 2 weeks after that. i dont like to get my hopes up or have expectations not met. i feel like its silly.

but it just dawned on me-its one thing to have your hopes up and its another to have a plan and work to get it done. this is a plan. not an idea. this is what needs to happen and its completely plausible. theres no reason-unless the apartment gets taken (and its been empty for months) that this cant happen. the only thing is that it can be hard to have to depend so much on another person.

i am depending on him to be able to come up with most of the money to get in there. beginning maybe july i can start rent paying and ill give him some move-in. but, this is going to be his place and he has to get the ball truly rolling on this. i guess thats what im here to do-motivate, inspire, move...

im nervous. i really am. but excited as hell.

to live alone.
to live with him.
to live cheaper.
to be able to save more.
to be able to spend more.
to have a dog.
to have a not waterbed.
to live in my 6th place in river oaks.
to grow up.

sigh.

i want to be happy. and i can do it. i havent been spending almost any time in hallandale or with those people (doesnt seem to stop the drama that exists there tho-and silly me thought it all revolved around me...). and that helps. i like a good life distraction as much as the next person, you kno? but...now, i have owen. and he lives in my neighborhood and doesnt do as many drugs and doesnt have as fucked up people surrounding him. i dont think. idktho.

blah. blah. blah.

i want to move in with my fucking boyfriend!!