fools rush in
Saturday, Dec. 30, 2006   9:26 am

im trying to figure out if im terribly in love or terribly attached.

i think its both. im so smitten right now. and so dependent on migs.

i dont know if ive ever felt this way before. im sure i have, but i think it was more of a caught in the moment sort of thing. i feel as though this is genuine. its not something that became an obsession right away...or else itd be over (like the poor others). its taken me 2 months to feel like this. so, none of its rushed. i mean, yeah...love at first sight, head over heels all thats great. but, its a little overrated. at least in my case. it all turns to shit when that happens.

i feel like ive matured to a point where i can really take the time to understand whats going on, whats going to go on, how im truly feeling...i dont know. but for the first time ever im thinking way more in the long term. and it seems real.

shit, i hope i dont get ahead of myself and in 3 weeks its over and im fucking someone else to forget about these months. i dont kno why thatd happen..but i dont really kno why anything happens...

i would like to bask in this complete feeling. and not take it for granted or ever forget that it exists.