im shat-rageous!
Monday, Nov. 27, 2006   7:55 am

silly me trying to write an entry in the brief moments of silence in the house during a beer run at 8am.

silly.

me.

i hope the issues everyone has (with me at least and miguel i guess) are gone and done. ive resolved to just stay away from the house. later that morning karlos made a remark about buying the beers we were drinking and miguel did a jig in his face and a full, unopened beer went flying to the floor. RETARDS, i tells ya. i truly do not ever want to hang out there again. that house is a cesspool of sad, lonely, depressed people who can only think of so many ways to cheer themselves up:
drama
drugs
tv
video games
avoidance of sunlight

and not to say that im not sad, lonely, or depressed (i am actually the epitome of all of the above). but, im trying to find ways not to be like that and they-kris, karlos, matt, jesyka, cameo-are not. not right now.

god! i know that as soon as i really separate myself from that house im going to go mad like always. god i hate it when i go crazy. because theres no relief. when im stuck at home with no rides and no potential fun all i want to do is go to the house. just even to sit and watch. i just have to try hard. that place can suck out your soul in the blink of a line. its almost as bad as the apartment. i dont know. i just dont want to keep letting myself get sucked in.

wah. wah. im just a big complainer. and i hate everyone.