ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
Tuesday, Nov. 08, 2005   6:46 pm

freddy isnt moving to sebring. just an update on that..really i dont care. i just want him disappeared from my brain. but that whole thing would require a brand new diary...

in two days i am leaving to new mexico. part of me is tempted not to get on the plane coming home. what if i would stay? who knows...but im not brave enough.

there is so much in my life right now. i have so many balls up in the air. so many layers that equal my stress.

-my job is exhausting. the 40 plus hours and the deadlines required. but like i mentioned last entry, raise and promotion make it a little easier.

-freddy existing hurts my head. he wakes me up at least once a night (usually right after ive finally fallen asleep and for no apparent reasons). he was going to leave but he got a job..now hes moving to the apartment with us...no one is to say how long he will still be a part of my life.

-new apartment. the hotel we lived in said we had to move by this thursday due to hurricane damage...so weve been going crazy trying to figure out where to live and how to pay for it. i think the hardest parts are over-we have a place and weve given a deposit...now to find time to move in.

-in the midst of the ex-boyfriend fights and job promotions and hurricanes and dwelling changes i am going for a visit to santa fe. thursday i will be soaking up the rays back at school. it took $340 and 6 months but its set in a stone like material that i will be going. i need the break from reality. the shrooms ang bought should help.

hopefully by the time i get home on sunday, things will assume a normal like appearance. but judging on how things have been going recently, probably not.