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Thursday, Feb. 17, 2005   1:03 pm

when i cry i usually say i dont know why. im a liar. i totally do know why, but im too much of a coward to admit the truth to myself. so i dont think about the real reasons im horribly sad and distraught.

the last time i had a "breakdown" or whatever, i told myself that it was because of my mom or my brother or the fact that i dont have a father...blah, blah, blah.

those are just excuses that can sound plausible. i dont want to admit the real things that bother me because they dont really seem worth any tears or overthought. im stupid though. so, that explains that.