lost
Monday, Nov. 01, 2004   7:04 pm

i want there to be something wrong with me but there isnt. and that bothers me.

i hurt so fucking much. and its unbelievable how badly i need someone to help me.

but nobodys here. i know who i want and i know i cant have them. im so afraid of myself and of what i am going to become.

this room spins and imstuck in the middle trying to find out where to hold on. but theres nowhere. and it hurts. stabs, even.

ill learn eventually./...one of these days ill learn.