willy wonka
Monday, Oct. 18, 2004   6:18 pm

im sick of pot. im sick of everything. but, definitely and mostly pot.

i decided this weekend that itd be my last time taking tcs...but even though the high isnt the same as before anymore, theres nothing else i can get my hands on that make me feel so happy.

saturday night, we were really bored and couldnt find anything to drink. i didnt mind, cuz i was hopped up on 16. we ended up going cosmic bowling. or laser bowling. or whatever its called-i have no idea...laser and neon lights and loud music...anyways...so we went-all million of us....

amy, nate, cory, will, ang, xia, brandon, alex, and me.....okay, nine-not a million...but two carfuls and two lanes feels like a lot.

anyways-that was definitely a trip. i couldnt throw the ball...i had to push it. i think almost every ball became a gutter ball...oh well...

after we came back and everyone decided to call it a night, i went out for a smoke. i wandered uopn la salle where all sorts of inebriated people hang out. i sat there taking swigs of bacardi coco (?)....the coconut one...delish....

somehow i went on a walk with the kid, jeremy-whom i havent seen since my first night at the brewery. and somehow we ended up on the roof of the oldest building on campus thats currently under major renovation. it was me, him, ted (my drug and drink connection), and two kids that i saw in teds room earlier when i went to him for the hook-up and while they waited for him to pick up drinks for them.

another somehow-i fell on my right knee right in the mud. i dont think that stain will be gone anytime soon. and a third somehow-my cd player fell to its demise as i climbed the ladder to the roof. so...all in all, the second half of my night was pretty much a bust.

ive considered that kid, jeremy. hes seems nice, he knows what hes talking about (he mentioned johnathan kozol when we were talking about education), and hes not ugly. but i think hes...fat. i feel gross and shallow saying that, but yeah. not ginormous, but bigger than id go. ive never had anyone even remotely overweight-theyve all been pretty fit. i dont wanna start now. alright.....im sick of myself, so im gonna stop talking now.