please fix me
Saturday, Jun. 12, 2004   3:25 am

i am so broken...i dont know why it takes these fucking triple c's for me to see this...

i am not happy. i am lost. i am alone. i am scared.

what happens after high school? how do people do it?! i dont think i can. theres something i need but i cannot put my finger on it and i feel like i will never find it.

there is this fucking pain inside my whole body that just will not go away. and there is nothing i can do to make it go away. not sex. not drugs. not tears. nothing.

fake smiles! i hate them. too real tears. hate them too. i need a fucking mother. i need a family. i cant do this alone. i know i cant.